I want to share a mighty experience I had some days ago related to this Crystal (I'm attending both the crystal and the mantra course, as a first time new student). Believing I am not the only person this is relevant for: It has to do with forgiveness and letting go of the past. This crystal really assisted me getting in and through this.
On a Sunday around 22.30 I was drawn to a bar, I had a feeling I had to go there. (I don’t drink, I was alone, and was kind of ready to go home, so clearly it was some kind of
guidance). I didn´t know why, but I went in and got eye contact with a guy I hadn’t seen for 15 years. The very guy that bullied me in school (I changed school because of this, it hunted me for years). When our eyes met I started to cry, I was just standing there holding eye contact with him, shaking a bit, but I was in my heart the whole time. I was crying, but connected to the heart. I gave him a big loving hug. He asked if I wanted to sit down. I said yes, I was sitting here with him. We talked for 1.5 hours, I showed him the crystal and told him about meditation, he was open and very loving, he had turned into this beautiful person. He is now dedicated to assist kids to dive and compete, he even trained two kids from Ukraine, he showed me videos of them jumping and diving. He seemed so happy and whole, he was so proud of these kids.
We didn’t mention him and me or the bullying, but we talked around it, we talked about forgiveness as a concept. Then I understood what was going on, I was not guided there for him to say “I’m sorry, please forgive me”. I didn’t actually care enough to ask him for it, or to talk about that specific event. I was there to see if I was ready to forgive myself, and if I was ready to heal, I had to forgive myself for all the suffering I had recreated over and over again for so many years. I didn’t know how to get past it then, but now I have the tools thanks to Ikya. So no excuse, I allowed myself to heal and move on by being in my heart, and seeing that he only could do what he did then because it was no other alternative back then. I would have done the same if I was him. I actually feel lucky to be the person that was the “victim” (in lack of a better word) because I can forgive, and move on.
Before this course I believed; “it’s so huge, so many years of my life, I thought about killing myself, the damage is so severe. I’m so hurt, I had to change school" and all of that.
In the end, it’s not relevant what happened, who did it, what was said and done, the answer is still the same “heal, be in the heart, forgive, forgive yourself and move on.”
It can be translated to so many events, to so many situations in YOUR life. One thing I want to mention, I have been in therapy more than half of my life, (I'm 28) at a point 4 times a week 2 years ago, (yes it was too much, I know, I had a lot of blind spots). I have been so much in the victim consciousness, I have felt so sorry for myself for SO MANY YEARS. I can truly say, in done with regular therapy. I have outgrown it now, isn't that Insane? Amazing? Unbelievable? That to me is something I never ever thought I would be able to say so quickly. This is all thanks to what's happening at the Ikya center, and the hard work and dedication and hours I have put down, because the spiritual practices is everything. I will also say its SO important to do the work. I have been meditating 2 times a day, everyday with my crystals, and the results are amazing and irreversible.
No matter who hurt you, it's no need to wait for words from someone else to give you peace and be able to move on. YOU can chose to move on everyday, every day is a day you can heal a piece of yourself, the emotions is a chemical reaction in your brain, and
the best part is that you can do it yourself. I did this a lot in meditation, I asked for my subconscious to show me my hurt, my trauma, and in every event, I visualized the situation, when, where it happened, and I used this pink sparkly blanket of healing emotions and put it over me with loving healing sensations in every situation, changing it. It´s such an amazing feeling to let go of the past, and let the past be the past for real. I'm sharing this to inspire you to take action in your own life, to look at the healing potensial. I truly hope this gave you some direction and spoke to your heart. It’s time to allow yourself to heal for real and let go for real, maybe the past was relevant for the larva, but it's not relevant for the butterfly your becoming, lets fly!
Sending you loving healing energy, you can do it, yes it´s time, your new life starts NOW!
Lots of love, always. <3
-Nina
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